Unfocused and bored

I am bored..bored, bored, bored. "Are we going on a walking tour? Where is my morning coffee and breakfast? Where are we going today?" I am REALLY bored.

And my boredness (is that even a word?) has doubled because not only am I home from a very long, busy trip to Europe, but I have no job, no boyfriend, and all of my friends and family are working and building houses, and having babies and getting married and all of that life stuff and I am kind of stuck with nothing to do. Everyone else has a purpose, something that they are working towards, a plan. I have a unfocused, unsure, jumbled mess that I have to deal with.

I thought Europe was going to help me figure things out...clear my head. It only seemed to delay the inevitable and make things worse. I didn't even have a chance to think about what I was seeing, let alone think about life. I barely had time to atleast write down what I saw. I barely remember what I did see! The one thought I did have was "I want to go home." I don't regret a second of it. I don't regret any of my decisions. I know that this is God's will. It was the right thing to do. But now I am back at home with a huge debt, an unfocused purpose, and a restless spirit. AND I AM BORED OUT OF MY MIND!

People keep telling me to do something. Get out of the house. Go try out for Deal or No Deal! I don't know what to do. I don't want to just go out and spend money. I don't want to just get out for the sake of getting out. I want to have a plan and a purpose. But I am so unfocused that I don't know where to start.